![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
peacock inbox / overflow;
audio / video / text / action
mating season profile
28 / male / bisexual / 8♢
Details
Back where I'm from, I was personally mentored by one of the best surgeons in the Kingdom of Rondon, who was a baron no less. Eventually, I also ended up serving as a combat medic for a war that just recently ended. As a result, I can't say I've had a lot of time exploring much in the way of hobbies, but I'll be glad to explore that kind of thing with people here. It's certainly much calmer by comparison.
Difficult to say as we adjust to life in this resort, but right now I'm just interested in getting to know everyone else here and assuring we all have a pleasant time. I assure you, I'd like to see to it you have one.
I used to work as a butler, so I have experiencing in mixing some pretty decent cocktails.
As much as I would love make people here a drink, I'd also enjoy showing how good I am with my hands. And, well, everything else, for the record.
Not much for books honestly; they put me to sleep better than any sedative. But I do like jazz and swing music, mystery films, and I favor beef wellingtons.
I consider myself a flexible man, but I like someone with a quick wit.
Wine.
.02 CLOWNS OR MIMES
Mimes, because at least they don't talk.
.03 SHOWER OR BATH
Bath.
.04 PIRATES OR NINJAS
Pirates, I guess.
.05 TITS OR ASS
Both.
.06 COFFEE OR TEA
Coffee.
.07 SPICY OR SWEET
Spicy. Never really got used to sweets.
.08 SUMMER OR WINTER
Summer.
.09 LEATHER OR LACE
Lace.
10. ROUGH SEX OR GENTLE SEX
Both.
ISFJ-T
no subject
[There's a pause, his hands moving on to a different part of Cloud's body. Eventually, Daan moves himself enough so that he can reach the other's back.]
I don't say it to brush you off. But I do relate to you in that way. It's why... in part that I tried to push you away. I thought I was doing you a favor, not getting dragged down with me. Obviously, it did nothing but made us both miserable when I did that.
I would be happier to be at your side, even if that appears inconceivable right now.
[Daan cups his hands in the water, then lets it trickle down Cloud's back, rinsing away the lather.]
I don't know him well. So I can't speak to his feelings, or his thoughts.
But I'll be fucking livid if you try to pull the same kind of shit with me that I did to you.
no subject
…I get it.
[ he looks down at his feet, braced against the bottom of the bath. ]
But don’t… don’t put me first. If you ever feel like I’m no good, then…
Then go.
[ more honestly— ]
I… I’ve never met anybody like you. I meant that…
no subject
Still, Daan is willing to give all of his patience and then some for Cloud.]
Then right back at you. ...The moment you begin to doubt, I want you think of yourself. Your needs.
[He rests a hand to Cloud's knee.]
Mm. I'll take that as a compliment unless corrected.
...I can't fix this. What happened, and how it impacts you. How it impacts him. But I will be here, Cloud. And I will do everything I can to help. I want to.
no subject
but daan— he’s speaking reasonably. he can’t deny him. his hand settles atop his, curling around it. ]
…Thank you. [ said so earnestly, so softly. ]
…Is it okay? If I stay with you for a few days?
[ his eyes rove off to the side. ]
I… I don’t want to do anything I’ll regret. And there’s— someone else here. Someone from home. I don’t want her to see me like this.
no subject
[With his other hand, he reaches out and gently smooths over the side of Cloud's face.]
Stay as long as you want. I can look after you.
[Someone else... but not Aerith. There aren't a lot of people he's met from wherever Cloud is from, but he can make some connections.]
What is her name... Tifa, is it? Aerith had mentioned her, but I could be mistaken. Either way, you're safe here.
no subject
[ some levity, at least, even if it’s born from embarrassment. and then daan says tifa’s name and— cloud’s gaze darts away instinctively. ]
…Yeah. She— we…
We grew up together. Came from the same village. Were…
The only people who survived what happened that day.
[ his throat tightens. ]
It’s… complicated. But I… don’t know what I’ll do or say if I talk to her right now.
no subject
[It's spoken wryly, but his tone immediately softens when he listens to how Cloud speaks about Tifa. The way Cloud reacts, how he looks away, his uncertainty in how to speak to a childhood friend... it almost makes him wonder if it's more than that.
There's no jealousy in Daan's heart. Truthfully, if there's someone else in Cloud's life, he would rather encourage that. It seems to him that Cloud could use it.]
Understood. If you somehow come up in a conversation, I'll ensure you have your space for now. I don't see it happening, but I like to be prepared.
[With some amusement, he adds:] Though I have one task for you once you're done in the bath, and you're gonna have to brush your teeth.
no subject
[ delivered as a joke, but there’s truth to it — what would he do without him? ]
…Appreciate it. I’m…not really ready for a lot right now.
[ and then daan says that and— cloud scratches at the back of his head. ]
Yeah, yeah, I know, I smell like shit. How else am I supposed to kiss you?
no subject
[Affectionately, he ruffles Cloud's hair. It's a bit of teasing, but there's warmth in the gesture as well.]
Exactly. I have some standards.
When you're finished with your bath, I'll get you a bathrobe you can borrow and a toothbrush. I'll stay here, of course. I won't go anywhere.
no subject
he brushes his teeth carefully, too -- grogginess slows his movements, but he gets to the finish line eventually, clearing out every crack and crevice of his mouth. once he's done, he looks to daan with a kind of boyishness, as if he's begun to grow shy about his own outburst. ]
...Can I kiss you now?
[ he has to ask -- he always did, but who knows, the vomit breath could always linger. ]
no subject
For now, he's glad to see him on his feet, smothered in a robe and freshly clean. When Cloud looks at him with that brand of bashfulness, Daan finds himself smiling fondly.]
Hmm. [Daan leans in and gives the briefest assessment before he answers warmly:] You can.
Come here.
[A hand cups the side of Cloud's face, carefully encouraging him near so they can close the distance.]
no subject
he doesn't know what to say. he can't thank him enough -- but he's aware he'll stumble back into redundancy. so, instead, a thumb tucks a strand of hair behind daan's ear, affection swimming in the sea of his eyes as he studies his face. ]
I...
[ his heart is swinging on an axis when he looks at him, swaying with something inexplicable. hm. ]
I'm glad I met you.
no subject
It's simple, the touch to tucking away hair, but it's... nice. It's gentle. It makes him feel warm.]
Don't know that I'll get used to hearing that.
But I'm glad I met you, too. Even if we're both a fucking mess.
no subject
[ he presses a kiss to his cheek this time, features benign with fondness. not a side of himself he showed readily.
both a mess. right. cloud sucks in a breath. something brews in the back of his mind, unbidden… ]
…The way you feel about your wife. What losing her did to you…
[ he swallows harshly. ]
I think… I think I understand now… when I think about him…
no subject
[The kiss is sweet, and draws an almost shy smile from him. Then, there's a pause as Daan hesitates before he slowly brings his arms around Cloud's waist, drawing him into an embrace. It's careful, as if he's holding a frightened animal, trying to be considerate and not too overbearing.]
...I wouldn't want anyone to feel that way.
But... I also know a little of how you feel, in this moment. Seeing your friend again.
It's different, of course. But I relate, for what it's worth.
no subject
…You said you sacrificed everything to get her back. I… I would’ve done the same for him. He was the only thing I had— the only thing I knew for… I don’t remember how long.
I wish you didn’t have to know this pain too.
no subject
[And he wasn't successful, but he also knows somehow that stitched up woman in the tunnels was also Elise. Another piece of the mystery, and horribly he only figured it out after they were done killing her.
But this isn't about Daan. Right now, his focus is on Cloud, and lightly rubbing his back as he holds the man.]
I'd spare you this feeling, if I could. ...If nothing else, if Zack is still here, perhaps you can manage some sort of closure with him eventually?
no subject
[ it's all he knows how to say-- and he can't say he doesn't understand the desperation, the fear either. he remembers it now: craning his head up to the sky and screaming his throat raw, because he had just lost his entire world in a fraction of moment. an unbearably painful memory.
he latches onto daan just a bit harder. ]
...I don't know. Being around him-- it hurts. But I don't... I don't know what I'll do if they take him from me again.
I hate this. I hate that they're messing around with us like this. I don't... I don't know if I'm strong enough to endure it, Daan.
no subject
It's a sick game they're playing. I'll be the first to say that much. To bring him here, as if to taunt you and him.
But even if you aren't strong enough by yourself... then that isn't the worst, is it? You, who is so determined to protect me when I've spent my life surviving on my own... You can rely on me, however you need to.
Let me support you, Cloud. Whatever strength is mine is yours to have.
no subject
[ cloud peers into his eye, expression steeped in a vulnerability he had so carefully kept from others. ]
…Thank you. [ he says again, the words foreign in his mind. and then, with an awkward kind of playfulness: ] You aren’t a bad ex husband to have.
no subject
[He starts to lightly stroke down Cloud's cheek, smiling fondly, but that last bit of mirth catches him off guard.
It earns a short chuckle out of Daan.]
You could do worse, as far as exes go. You aren't so bad yourself.
no subject
[ he was worried -- that being so visibly vulnerable in his presence would erode his faith in him. cloud huffs out a little wisp of a laugh, turning away. ]
You flatter me. [ said completely deadpan. ] I... don't know who I would've gone to if you weren't around. ...I owe you. Seriously.
no subject
[He leans in, kissing Cloud's temple.]
You don't owe me. I might not be especially well versed in this "friendship" business, but it sounds shitty to me to make each other owe anything when we're in a bad way.
no subject
[ god, he sounds like such a child right now. and then daan—says the word “friendship” and cloud pauses, mulling it over.
friends.
right.
they were friends. of course. ]
I… We… [ he doesn’t know — what he wants to say. so he stops himself mid sentence. ] …Guess you’re right. Not…used to things being like this.
The… the last I person I talked to about these kinds of things was… was Zack, so…
no subject
[Zack. Truly, he must be a dear person to Cloud indeed if the comparison is to Elise. To have someone to talk about this with, and...
It leaves him to wonder, actually. Daan could never take amusement out of Cloud's matters, but with Elise, it was... surely, it was because Daan was too sensitive. That's what he keeps trying to convince himself of these days, anyway.]
...I think this is new for both of us. There wasn't exactly a lot of people I talk to about my background. Could count them all on one hand, including you.